Thursday, January 17, 2013

What do I want with this?

You may have noticed (or you may not have, that's okay!) that I've been missing for a few weeks.  I was sort of trying to figure out what I wanted to do.  I wasn't sure if it was just blogger burnout or if I was done.

It didn't take long for the kiddos to pick up various illnesses and we all ended up sick for awhile and I was swamped with work and honestly, didn't even check my blog email because I was trying to separate myself from it for a bit.

I think the break and random busy-ness that occurred while I was concentrating on regular every day life made me realize that I wasn't enjoying blogging because it felt like it wasn't for me anymore.  By that I mean I wasn't doing it because I wanted to, I was doing it because I had so much on my plate that it just wasn't as fun.  I was worried about trying to "keep up" (with other bloggers, with deadlines, with whatever). 

In with all my thinking, I was trying to decide if I was going to move and ended up clearing out a TON of stuff and rearranging the apartment and getting stuff situated and organized the way I wanted it, not the way that it'd been the last 3 years that we've been here.  The way that the ex arranged it.  I discovered I very well COULD move crazy-heavy furniture.  That I could get rid of all his crap that he hadn't taken with him, and that I could enjoy being home. 

That means I've eliminated a ton of "junk" from life (and my house..it's freakishly bare!)  I'll slowly put stuff back in that I actually like.  Redecorating on my time and single-mama-with-no-support-budget is going to be a lengthy process, but I'll get to enjoy it because it'll be "mine."  Same with life, getting rid of drama and the people that create it, getting closure on something I needed closure for has opened me up to special new people and friends.  It's pretty awesome :)

All that said, I completely and utterly decided I missed blogging.  Face it, all the fun reviews are awesome and let me try new things that might not otherwise be possible, BUT I'm going to make it a goal to make it "my" blog again and blog about stuff I really, really want to blog about, our daily life, recipe concoctions we attempt, art projects and fun kid stuff along with that. 

I'm glad to be back, and if you notice my blog getting more personal it's because I feel like that was completely lacking and I wasn't connecting very well.

2 comments:

Jeanne Medina said...

Congratulations, Sarah! That's awesome that you have cleared out all the past stuff that is no longer you. When you do get some money set aside for new stuff, you'd be amazed what you can pick up on a Sunday after noon at estate sales. Lots of times they have done the best they can since Thursday, but anything left, they will have to move or give to charity, so it's their last chance to make any money at all. You can get great deals, especially on furniture by asking if you can make an offer. It will usually already be 75%off because it's Sunday, so bid lower than that. If it doesn't sell by the end of the day, they would rather call you to come get it and make a small amount than make nothing and have to haul it themselves. Good luck!

Sarah said...

Well that's awesome! I had no idea you could do that! Thanks!

 
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